I want monday off

Ive been asking for a day off in ages!!!! and now there saying they cant tell whos off because the computers broke its just bollax!!! i need a rest a big rest!

this place is doing my head in...

I am just so unhappy right now

The way i feel mentally is just horrible the more i think about the fact im stressing the more i think about my stupid hair loss i just cant cope any more i really am at breaking point, is all this stress and pain worth training and money because its making my life an absolute misery atm! im usually so jolly and happy and now im just nothin ! im so scared no one can seem to help me, i really wanted to do something tonight but they just tell me i have to work over for them! i feel so sick its marie she physically makes me feel sick.
she keeps going on and on about me being slow n when i rush n forget to write summat she moans when im not quick enough on the toilet, if i want a fag half the time she wont let me !
every day she moans i try and try but im never good enough and never will be i am just nothin to her just someone to push around and bully! she makes me work over all the time causing me to miss plans which i then get stressed over that for i need help i just want to get out of this big mess.

Rush Rush Rush

They constantly rush you, which stresses me out even more! they do not care about the people working here they just want the money!!!!
i need a day off quick im back to doing jus p.d.i.s again which is an absolute joke im sick of telling them i should be learning! this is either gonna make me go bold from stress or make me stronger and right now its breaking me down! im sick of it i wish i could just leave but once i start sumfin im gunna finish it !

Very Stressed - loosing my hair

My hair has started to fall out and in places im actually bold, im only 18 i dont understand why this is happening, its so embarrasing i have no way of hiding it because my one side is shaved and its gona bold there and by my neck, i havent died my hair in 7 months so its not hair die!!! its got to be stress when i first got my illness i did loose alot of my hair! huge patches and it never grew for months!!! and its back and i think its the stress of working here! i hate it grrrrr

meeting

So i had a meeting with my boss frank the plank and laid down how i felt my mom and dad was present as i dont remember anything lol, he practically blamed me for everything, the fact i ent progressed and stuff but really its his fault but, things have changed for the better already ive been doing electrics servicing and tyres which is much different to the usual shit p.d.i.s so i am happy now, i just hope it lasts i really do , me and john are going great and hopefully my job will to :)

Cleaning again

I am back on cleaning duty which is a pure and utter joke.
i am having a meeting later on with my boss frank as i have seriously had enough i may ever bring a witness along as i wont remember everything.
im moving 100 tyres and boxes when my apprenticeship is to fix cars its just all wrong ! johns parents went through my contract to see were i stand because im no good with all that so i really appreciated. them helping me.

Bullshit !!!!

So i have been asking to learn for over a year at work to progress as im training but they wont let me
but today is a perfect opportunity to learn because theres not much work in so me and the other apprentice are working together but that means one of us could be learning but they still wont let me im going to have to go to court its just rediculous !
i am so stressed over this its giving me depression and my family because were just banging our heads up a brick wall and getting no where ! i want to learn is that to much to ask ! they r taking the piss seriously and im gonna snap.
im a really patient person but a year of waiting has now taken its tole on my health so i have no choice but to get legal advice.
so tonight my boyfriend john and his mom are going to help me make a plan of what im going to do !
me and emily ( the other apprentice ) are working on another p.d.i
Crapppp!!!

The basics of whats happened

i started ford two years ago, thinking it will be a great opportunity but what a big disaster that turned into.
The first year was great i learned loads and was having the time of my life then once the second year started i was given these things called P.d.i's

p.d.i - pre delivery inspection
which means you check the car thou rally ready for the new customers except ive been doing them every single day as well as cleaning for the last year. so i havent learned a thing.
i have spoke to my boss even cried in his office and they wont let me learn there just using me as cheap labour and they no it. ive asked and asked and begged but the only way i can learn is by doing it in my own time like working over morning night and weekends and to be honest its killing me !

i have to do jobs that collage tell me to as i gi to collage now and again and im so behind because theres not enough time to get it all done so i failed !!!! i am screwing and will have to go through the legal way as im just being used

Charactors Of the Blog

main people i will blog about

Marie - workshop control
frank - service manager
john - partsman Aka My boyfriend
Simon - General manage Aka Arsehole
phill - carpark attendent
emily - other apprentice

Welcome to My Blog About what it feels like to be an apprentice

My names lexi im 18 and im from england through out the next couple of months im going to desribe what i have to do and the way it makes me feel and so on.....

i will back track right to the beginning - when i was 14 and in school i had the option to do a hairdressing or mechanics apprenticeship, and i did think about doing hairdressing but every girl picked it so i thought id try something new.

i thought if i dont like it ill swap, i done a jaguar landrover level 2 NVQ which took 2 years to do and was the most stressful thing i had ever done.
no one liked me and i just got bullied really bad they was all immature and childish and didnt understand what manners meant, but i carried on (Dont no how though) and completed my level 2 so i was told id get a job at jaguar because of what id done but nope there was no jobs available so i decided to further my career elsewhere and applied every where main dealerships backstreet garages everrrywhere! and eventually i thought i found a great oppurtunity at ford so i took it and what a big mistake it turned out to be ! my bosses are the biggest bullshiters in the world so im going to blog about what i go through the stress the jobs the good times every thing !